Thursday, June 15, 2006
Lost another game of UNO to Margalit yesterday. Frustrating. (Of course, I know that no one is interested in that bit of news, but I needed something to put in to introduce this picture.
Lola was supposed to be spayed this week, but the stupid mutt went into heat last Friday. So much for her operation. We did Ariella's dog, Lucy, and although we now have to worry about where to put Lucy when Ariella goes to National Service, at least we don't have to worry about Junior Lucys!
I was musing with a friend today about a person who I know who seems to be engaging in extremely self-destructive behavior. In addition to simply doing things which are nastily out-of-character and detrimental to his own self-interests, this person hangs around the most undesirable characters in the city. I commented on how strange this was...that someone who used to be normal, kind, considerate and a positive member of the community is now reduced to spending time with people who few other people in town are willing to socialize with. "Maybe that's how this man sees himself now" my friend commented, and that threw me for a loop. The psyche is a scary thing.
Every day this week has had something going on which has pushed me to the limit. Sunday I took Hagai to the library (Lola ate another book yesterday, but that's another story). Monday I had a meeting in Carmiel about my upcoming T-shirt business. Tuesday was Lola's spay job, so I had to leave work in the middle, take her up, come back, and then take Ariella up to pick her up and take her home at the end of the day. Yesterday I went to the shuk -- saved a lot of money, but used up a lot of time. And today I have a dr's appointment.
And every week, I say to myself "well, that week is over. This one will be easier. And, of course, it's not." I'm already looking ahead at next week, which is as chock-full as this one was. Margalit has a birthday party one evening, Yochi has a end-of-year recital for her dance class, and I have another t-shirt business meeting, with MATI, the organization that helps small business start up. I hope that they can help me make sense of all the confusion swirling around in my head...how do I order? How do I pay? How do I take orders? How do I get a credit card account? And how to I keep track of all of this?
It's easier to just work for someone and get a salary, but I can see, much as I love Livnot and like working for them, I've got to think of other directions. Since I get so much satisfaction out of my association with Livnot, an organization that does so much for the Jewish world, I am trying to think of ideas which will allow me to continue working with them, but will increase my end-of-month income as well (Livnot is no different from any other non-profit organization -- salaries are basic). Hence, the t-shirts, which I can sell while doing my regular work and I don't have to worry about overhead. Tov, we'll see. Gotta dream......